June 2010

In June 2010
just before the two days I remember vividly out of the rest
My diary would have read something like this;

Finally,
I've come to this point
The point where life changes forever
No going back
Only promises to be kept
And Vows to be made

Actually,
I'm not scared
It's all I've always wanted
Never asked for anything less
It's happening
And I'm joyous

Really?
The search is over?
Never felt this way before
I guess its meant to come just once
I've gotten there
And I'm knowing it

My Eureka moment,
I've met my king
My best friend
The love of my life
The proof that God's love
reaches down to the earth

Thank you Father,
I'm hugging you right now
Can you feel me?I know you hear me
Major dream achieved!
See you all in the future people
Name...changed and all.xoxo

Yours Truly,
TRULYAdlyne

QUESTIONS?

If what I do is right
Why does my heart squeeze
when I pause to analyse?
Why do I swallow hard
Still to find the absence of saliva?
Why do I feel so terrible about it?

What would Jesus have me do?
When Unity causes division
When people conspire against people
kin against kin
If I din't fight for me
I'd still fight for you

I've known me for years still I ask 'Why?'
Why I comprehend taking a stand
More than I understand sitting on shameful fences
For me or anyone else
Why do I always have to have an opinion?
Which one do I love the most; Justice or Design?

Should I ask for your the grace  to walk away?
The wisdom that radiates from silence?
As the sun quietly but surely warms up the earth
reaching deep within
Healing the damp soul of the soil
from inside out?

Yours Truly,
TRULYAdlyne

I think, I’m busy

‘Busy’ is one word that appears more often than not in my life

Things get so upbeat

Everything moves, spins and dances around me

This is how I like things to be normally

However, sometimes the speed amazes me

And leaves me wondering who got me here

So many things to be done

Yet time waits for no one,

Days go by and I check my ‘to-do-list’

A few things to tick off here and there

Still, the listings are endless

I stop to ponder on what exactly keeps me so busy

What do I have running in my head all the time?

Sometimes; family, friends, business, career, life management…

Other times; colors, surfaces, finishes, knowledge, gatherings…

I zoom-in on people far and near and experiences I’ve had with them

I think about my dreams, my passions, the things I can’t do without

My career, my aspirations and possible ways to fuse things

I think about things as uncomplicated as my Kitchen

And smart tricks to keep molds and bugs away from the cabinets

I think about my life in terms of Verbs

And the world in terms of Adjectives,

About how I feel when I walk in to my space again knowing I did my laundry yesterday

I think about accomplishments

As days go by, I dream about looking back in future

And nodding to the fact that I had time to think about everything

I remember a time when I felt I wasn’t busy enough and how I’d cry myself to sleep

And I think about now that I’m so busy and how my back aches, going to bed at night

But if I’d chose between the two, I’d chose the latter over and over again

There’s a difference between body and spirit and a need for sleep to be justified

It’s wonderful to be busy and I won't want life any other way

I'd like to also master juggling all aspects really well

And I’d like to witness my achievements 

To know that because I set time apart to think, I was busy 

And because I was busy, I got to do it

There’d be no greater joy in my busy world!

So every day when I think of how busy I’m going to get

My silent heartfelt and fervent prayer is;

For the good Lord to bless my thoughts and package them into ideas,

To bless my ideas that they blossom into creativity

And bless my creativity to transform the lives of my family, friends and community

All through me, the ever thinking, ever busy one.

Yours Truly,

TRULYAdlyne

New Year Prayer